Feeling a change...

I really think going to the pool to exercise has been helping me a lot. I know I haven't been doing it as much as I'd like to, or as much as I probably should, but I do think it's making a difference. Today, after all I did yesterday, I would have normally not made it out of my bed much at all the whole day. However, I managed to stay out in the rest of the house and even laid out in the sun today. Granted, I've still been in a lot of pain, and luckily the weather was bright, warm and sunny, which I'm sure helped a lot...but it was nice to feel a change, compared to the norm.

I did have some minor issues with anxiety today, but I made it though that also, and I even made it out to the grocery store to pick up a couple things, all by myself. I know that sounds silly, but really I don't do much of anything by myself anymore. So when I do venture out on my own, I tend to pat myself on the back for doing it.

I don't like to admit any of this, because it's rather embarrassing to say you are too nervous or "scared" to go into a store, or any where else for that matter on your own. I just don't like to though, it makes me shake, and stutter and feel like everyone is looking at me. I realize they most likely are not, but I can't help but feel this way. It has taken a lot of inner strength and self persuasion to get myself to overcome these thoughts.

• shoulders, neck, head pain levels 5 (a bit of the permashrug but not too bad)
• arms, wrists and hands pain levels 3
• hips/butt legs and ankles pain levels 4
• feet are really bothering me still and I wish I could get someone to rub them for a really long time. pain level 8 
• lower back pain level 5

It seemed that last night it was fairly easy to fall asleep even though I was REALLY sore, I'm hoping that I'm tired enough to do the same tonight. (knock on wood)

I'd really like to get to the pool tomorrow, I'm not sure if it will happen though, with hubs and I sharing a car. Maybe I can con someone into going with me and giving me a ride. Let's hope so!