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If I just sit here and think about how bad I'm hurting right now, I can barely stand it. My eyes are watering from the pain, and it's all over me, even my face and teeth and the tips of my toes. My scalp where my hair is growing from the follicles is in piercing pain.

Normally hurting this bad I probably would not blog it, just because this is very difficult to put into words and even type and focus. However this needs to be documented. This is the best way to really describe it, while it's actually happening. Maybe I can go back and edit later, because I'm not sure how much sense I'm actually making right now.

When I woke up this morning I literally said "God, Why me?" I'm so sick of feeling yucky. When I have many days of this in a row it's really hard to even get out of bed. I am out of bed today though and I call that an accomplishment. It's the little victories like that, that keep me going when it gets really tough. I will need to shower today too, so that will be another victory once it finally happens. (Probably after a long soak in the bathtub.) Feeling like this, I doubt I will get much of anything else done, which always puts me behind on life.

Usually if I can find ways of keeping my mind busy I can tolerate the pain much easier. The trick is finding the ways that don't involve making the pain worse. Right now everything hurts, so there aren't many things I can do besides, tv, because even clicking the mouse and typing is difficulty right now so no computer, and I'm not getting around very well, so walking isn't helping. Focusing my eyes is giving me issues too. This is a very miserable day.

The weather is cold and rainy... I love fall... I hate what it does to me now though. They are calling for this the rest of the week, so maybe if it stays consistent my body will acclimate to it and I'll feel better?

• head, face and neck pain level 8.5
• shoulders and upper back pain level 8
• arms, wrists, hands and fingers pain level 7.5
• lower back, hips, butt, legs, knees, ankles and feet pain level 7
• abdominal pain and cramps pain level 4
• watery eyes
• sore throat
• acne 
• blurred vission